Monday, July 30, 2012

Air & Space

My nutritionist told me that I needed to walk more.  She requested I walk at least 30 minutes a day for health and work up to an hour.  When I asked for suggestions on where to walk, I don't to so well on hills and still worry about falling over my own feet, she recommended taking my kids to some of the museums or sights in the area.  When I mentioned this to my children they were excited about the idea. 

There is a "new" Air & Space museum in our area.  I say it's new because I hadn't been there.  Essie & Rosie had been there over a year ago. We decided we should go.  It was a bit far and we had to pay $15 to park! 

We invited Geneva & Vicky but only Vicky came with us.  T, G & Rosie didn't want to stay with us so I let them go off on their own & we met back after a few hours.  I was able to get the pictures from the kids that they took and Essie & I also took some.  Here's a brief glimpse of our time there.  (BTW - I walked 2 hours that day!)

Anthony (T) & R2D2 Mailbox

Essie

Vicky

Joshua! No Touching the exhibits!

Anthony resting on the Space Shuttle

All T can find in the gift shop that he likes is a book on math

Rosie

Joshua (G) pointing out some air & space

Joshua

Joshua & Anthony using up some of the extra space

Sunday, July 29, 2012

Visiting Another Ward

So today my family, not Rosie, visited a friend's Ward. They live in Hagerstown, MD. They used to live in Gaithersburg (about 4 years ago). Their son just returned from his mission. I cannot believe how old he is.

I was his Primary teacher when he was 10 years old. He was part of a very difficult class of a bunch of rowdy boys. He was one of the "ringleaders".

I love visiting other Wards. Don't get me wrong, I love my Ward. I really enjoy visiting other Wards & being reminded how organized the church is.

It is funny how fasinated Essie (or another of my children) is/are about how everything is the same.

I did miss my Primary friends today.

Friday, July 27, 2012

Emmnie's coming home!

Emmie has not been able to find a job & has decided to come home.  CB & I have been paying her rent for July & August.  We are glad she's coming home & hope she'll be able to find a job here. :)

Saturday, July 21, 2012

Cleaning the church

Our family had the priviledge of cleaning the church this past Saturday.  We belong to The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints.  We do not hire people to clean our buildings.  The members are the ones who do the cleaning.  In our building there are 3 Wards (congregations).  Our Ward gets the opportunity to clean the building every 3rd week.  On Sunday they asked in Priesthood opening exercises if anyone wanted to help clean.  My son, T, volunteered our family.  I am so proud of him.
Rosie & G preparing to vacuum
We showed up at 8:30 to help clean.  CB had to go to one of the other building to help with a computer problem.  There were only 3 other people there to help.  One of them was extremely ill, one of the others took him to the hospital. The other volunteer, Andre (an 18 year old), my 4 children & I cleaned the building.  I found myself singing one of the Primary songs that I learned as a child about Saturdays.
Essie cleaning chalkboards
G & Rosie got out the vacuums and did a wonderful job.  Essie was in charge of cleaning all chalkboards.  T started on the windows.  Andre emptied all the trash cans.  I cleaned the bathrooms (all 5).  At least the next day I knew they were really clean!
Getting ready to clean the bathrooms
CB showed up when most of us were done.  T was still working on windows.  CB grabbed another spray bottle and went to work to help him finish. 
T cleaning windows




I really apreciate the opportinity our family has to help clean the church.  The children take more ownership in the building and appreciate what goes into keeping it clean.  I hope all families, when given the opportunity, take it. 
I wonder what it's like to clean the temple & who gets the priviledge of doing that.

Friday, July 20, 2012

Sometimes I forget that Having Asthma SUCKS!

I have asthma. I have had it under control for the past few years. I don't even have a rescue inhaler. Well . . . as of yesterday, I cannot breathe. I had actually forgotten how hard it can be to breathe. I'm not one to complain to the doctor, I'm more of a let's see if I can deal with this kind of a person.

On Wednesday I sent an email asking my doctor for a perscription for a rescue inhaler. I hadn't been to the store to get what I needed for dinner so instead I went & picked up McDonald's for everyone. I cancelled my 8:30 AM phototherapy appointment for the next morning & went to bed.

Rosie & I went to the grocery store Thursday afternoon. I really had trouble breathing as we went through the store. When we got home I checked if the doctor had replied to me. She had not so I sent her another message.

Side note - My previous doctor had given my a perscription to keep at home for times such as this. It has 3 pills that you take one a day for three days. Whenever I had these breathing issues he would have me start the pills & if I wasn't better in 3 days I would go see him. I still have 2 sets of these pills and they're not expired.

In my message to my doctor I told her about these pills & asked if I should take them. She did not reply before I went to bed.

I turned the oxygen up on my bi-pap machine & went to bed. This morning I was no better. I did not remember to check & see if the doctor had replied (they usually send an email to let me know to check my messages - either they didn't or I missed it).  It wasn't until my sister, Tammy, called me (around 1:30 PM) that I remembered to check messages. The doctor put in a perscription for a rescue inhaler (Albuterol) & said I should call CDU. I called & they set up an appointment at 2:20 (it was 2:05). The girl said I should be 10 minutes early (right like I can get ready & be there in 5 minutes!).
I got here 10 minutes late. :)

Took with my phone, not so bad since I took it myself :)


I am right now in the Critical Decision Unit at Kaiser in Gaithersburg. I've had a breathing treatment, had blood drawn, have an IV & received some medication through the IV. I'm still wheezing! I've been here 2 1/2 hours. We're waiting on lab results & ?.

Good news - I took one look at the hospital bed & was sure I was too big . . . I'm not! They even put the sides up & I've got plenty of room, yay! Now if I only knew how much longer I was going to be here . . .

5:30 PM Update - labs are back, going to get another breathing treatment, then probably being sent home.

8:30 PM Update - I had a 3rd breathing treatment after 7 PM and then was released to go home.  I can breathe now! YAY!

Wednesday, July 18, 2012

G & T Can Ride

Okay, here's one of my bad mommy things.  I never taught my kids to ride a bike.  We live in a condo on the 4th floor of the building.  There is no play area near our building.  It's not a complex, but an individual building on a "regular" street.  A lot of the houses near us are now businesses. When my children were young I was a Newspaper carrier and often tired.  Since there really was no where to let the kids play outside we had to go to parks to get our outdoor time.  I really did not want to cart bikes around.  We also did not have a place to store them other than insde our Unit.
 
CB & I did buy a bike for Emmie when she was 5.  She never really got the hang of it and no one else ever wanted to try riding it. 
 
This year the Young Men in our church for their High Adventure activity are going on a MAJOR bike ride (like 180 miles w/backpacks)!  My sons do not ride.  They didn't even mention this to us, just told us that they were not planning on going on the High Adventure activity.  Enter James Perez, an awesome Young Men's President.  After talking it over with my sons they decided it was time to learn to ride.  James brought an extra bike & had Mike Rogers (another excellent YM leader) bring one as well.  Long story short, they can now ride bikes!  They are definately not ready to go on a long bike ride with backpacks but they know how to ride! When I went to pick them up Essie & I snapped a bunch of pictures.  Here are a few. . .




 

Monday, July 16, 2012

My Rude Children

Tonight there was a Stake Fireside for the Youth, ages 12-18 & their parents. (A Stake is a group of 5-8 congregations - a Fireside is a devotional meeting run by leaders in the area) The Stake leaders wanted to talk with the youth about questions that might be asked about the church and help them to know how to answer them.

CB & I took G, T, Rosie & Essie (even though she's only 11).  CB, Essie & I sat together while G, T & Rosie refused to sit with us.  We were sitting in the 5th row in the chapel.  They wanted to sit in the back (in the overflow seating).  I knew that if they sat that far away they would not pay attention.  I told them they had a choice to sit with us or sit in the row in front of us.  They choose to sit in front of us. 

I thought the Fireside was very helpful & informative.  Essie also thought it was really good.  G, T & Rosie talked almost the entire time (to each other!).  No matter what CB or I said to them they just would not stop.  CB said one of the father's in the row in front of them kept turning around to look at them. 

I was so frustrated!  G & T are 17 years old and Rosie is 15.  At this age they should know better.  On the way home I was trying to talk to them about what happened.  T & G were very defensive about what happened.  G kept telling me that if I had let them sit in the back they wouldn't have been a distraction.  I'm really surprised he thought that was the solution. 

How do you get 17 year olds and a 15 year old to behave for an hour in a meeting that is directed at them.  The other youth there (even those sitting with friends) were able to behave.  The other youth participated when volunteers were asked for.  AAUGH!


Friday, July 13, 2012

Target & the Cutest Lipbalms

I have become enamored with Target's Dollar Spot. My children would always stop there on the way into the store. At first it really annoyed me. I mean, come on, most dollar stuff is just junk, right? From what I saw it looked like stupid, cheap junk! I would think, "Come on, we just got to the store & you've got to spend your money already."



As time went on I noticed Emmie & Rosie would have on the cutest socks (that I wouldn't recognize as something I had purchased for them). Whenever I would inquire as to whose they were I was always told, "Oh, I bought them at Target's Dollar Spot."






Now you should know that Essie was always searching for socks.  No matter how many packs I would buy for her she could never find a pair. I was very frustrated about the lack of sock situation and had finally told her to just go without. Oftentimes she would go sockless with her tennis shoes. This, of course, leads to ultra-stinky shoes & feet. Kids at school are also really cruel & love to tease. (not that any of that fazed Essie)

I decided it was time to visit the Dollar Spot.  And . . . oh what a wonderful "spot" it was! Yes, there was lots of stupid, cheap junk. Intermixed within the "junk" were some treasures. Since that first visit to the "spot" I never go into Target without first browsing the "spot".

Essie now owns many pairs of socks. She doesn't lose as many (is it because they're cute or just that she's growing up?), and always has a matching pair to wear with her tennis shoes. I don't mind browsing through the socks every visit & spending a few dollars on something cute.

Socks is not the only thing I've found in there that's been worth buying. They often have a fun snack (although not very healthy). Emmie & I found small bags of cotton candy a few times, Yum! I've also found small bags of Combos that I haven't been able to find anywhere else. (I'm sure I could buy a case of them at Costco or Sam's but then I'd have an entire case tempting CB & I to eat them as opposed to a pack or 2).

I have also found some small baskets. I LOVE organizing! Anytime I find an organizational tool, that isn't too expensive, I'll buy it. (Dollar Tree is one of my favorite places to shop. I always leave with some sort of bin, basket or storage "tool".)

My favorite thing so far at the Target Dollar Spot has been lip balm (chapstick).

Cute chapsticks from Target Dollar Spot

 I cannot stand dry, chapped lips. We found the cutest lipbalms! I have even gone back & bought extras (you never know when items will come & go from the "spot"). I have shared some with the Tecky girls (G & V). The other day when Rosie, Essie & I were out shopping we found the creme de la creme of cute lipbalms.

Mountain Dew chapstick


Isn't it just so cute. Okay, I am a bit obsessed with Mountain Dew. I didn't used to be. It was one of my brother, Jon's, favorite drinks. Ever since he passed away (November 1998) it has become my soda of choice. My sister, Tammy, started leaving a can or bottle at his grave. I had dranken it before but not regularly. I started buying it, when I should get a good price, and came to realize that I really enjoy it from a can (and occasionally from a 20 ounce bottle).  (I'll have to put post about my soda crazies sometime)

Anyway . . . if you have a Target nearby check out their Dollar Spot. You might find a treasure. If you go once (or have been there before & found nothing) and don't find anything worth buying, don't discount it as a place not to check again. I've gone in there & struck-out multiple times. They are constantly changing the stuff in there, go again & again. You just might find a treasure.

Wednesday, July 11, 2012

Hospital, Weight Loss, Clothes & Shopping

I am a large girl.  I have been large for quite some time.  Even as a child and a youth, I was not small.  I weighed about 200 lbs at graduation from High School.  In 2010, I ended up in the hospital (due to knee problems). While in the hospital I had a bunch of other health issues come up.  I did get weighed in the hospital (and was at an all time high of 554 lbs).  I knew I had gained quite a bit of weight due to swelling (I had a skin infection).  I ended up staying in the hospital 2 weeks.  During that 2 weeks, I lost about 60 lbs. Most of this was water weight.  I was still really heavy.

January 2010 on G & T's birthday



In March of 2010 I went shopping for prom dresses with Emmie.  I got a scratch and didn't bleed.  I had water coming out instead.  I was having trouble fitting behind the wheel to drive. My legs were so swollen that Essie would squeeze them to help relieve the pressure.



July 2010 on my birthday


When I was in the hospital my doctor had the bariatric surgeon come & talk with me.  He put me on a special diet in the hospital & had me consult with the nutritionist.  I came to realize that I wasn't eating enough, often enough or enough protein.  Most of the weight I lost those 2 weeks was excess water but the weight I've lost since then isn't.  I changed the way I eat & have lost about 1-2 lbs per week (most weeks).


June 2012 cutting the dog's hair

I can see the biggest changes in my face.  Getting my haircut helped as well.

This week I was at the Nutritionist's office. I weighed in at 380! On this blog, to the right is a weight loss counter. At the writing of this post, it shows I've lost 174 lbs. I still have quite a long way to go to reach my goal weight but I am so much smaller than I was before.

Today I tried shopping with Rosie & Essie.  We went to Lane Bryant.  I cannot remember the last time I was able to try on clothes & buy from a physical store.  I have bought my clothing through catalogs & online for the past 10 years (at least).  I wasn't sure if I would be able to find something that would fit me.  I did!

Rosie was trying on clothes as well.  At one point we had on the same shirt (different sizes, of course).  Essie took a picture of us using my phone.

Trying on matching shirts

Unfortunately it's a bit blurry (she is only 11).  It was fun trying on clothes.  I ended up buying 4 new shirts & 2 bras!  I did buy for Rosie as well.  I hope to go shopping more in the future as I lose more weight.
 
 
BTW - As I was looking for pictures of myself I realized I don't have that many.  I guess I take most of the pictures (which aren't very many) and need to ask everyone else to help out more. :)
 

Monday, July 9, 2012

Sacrament Meeting Talks

T & I were asked to speak in Sacrament Meeting on the same Sunday.  In our church members of the congregation are asked to speak most weeks.  We are given a topic, sometimes a talk by a Prophet or a specific scripture to focus our talk on. 

We were asked about 3 weeks in advance.  At first, I thought - no big deal, I can do this.  The topic was part of the Proclamation.  I didn't worry too much about this.  I have read over the proclamation multiple times (I even have a copy of it on my fridge).  I re-read the part we were asked to focus on.  Both T & I were given specific directions on what part to talk on.  I started thinking about how to talk about it and how to make it "work".  I prayed a lot about it as well.  As the time drew closer, I started to get real nervous.  I couldn't figure out how to share this information without it being boring!  (I hate boring Sacrament Meeting talks!)

I probably wrote the talk out at least three times and it wasn't until Saturday night that I thought it was done.  I put a copy on my Kindle to read as I was falling asleep.  The next morning after my shower I had the computer on and was making changes.  I had had the inspiration that obviously I needed.  I recorded our talks so I could send copies to Emmie.  They're not very good.  I've taken our notes & modified them as best as I can (to match what we actually said) so you can read our talks. (His was about 5 minutes, mine was a bit over 12 minutes)

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Here's T's talk: 
Hello. I’m Anthony Leon also known as Tony Leon and I was asked to give a talk on Choosing to Follow the Plan of Salvation of Heavenly Father. Specifically, I was asked to speak about the premortal life and what happened there and the choices we made. The premortal existence occurred in a time before we were born when we were all just spirits. In the premortal existence, we lived with our Heavenly Father. This is shown in D&C 93:29 which says, “Man was also in the beginning with God.” It was during this time that the Plan we chose to follow was established. This plan required we come down to Earth to be tried and tested. Abraham 3:25-26 reads, “And we will prove them herewith, to see if they will do all things whatsoever the Lord their God shall command them; And they who keep their first estate shall be added upon; and they who keep not their first estate shall not have glory in the same kingdom with those who keep their first estate; and they who keep their second estate shall have glory added upon their heads for ever and ever.”
Two plans were presented to fulfill this. One was presented by Lucifer and proposed that all people be forced to be righteous. This would allow people to return to Heavenly Father, however, we would lose our agency and would not get the chance to learn and grow. Lucifer also wanted glory for presenting the plan. The other was presented by Jesus and proposed that a Savior redeem the world and allow us to make our own decisions and to learn and grow. It also gave everyone the opportunity to return to God.
The two plans presented a choice to everyone. Although Heavenly Father had final say, we all had our agency and therefore the ability to choose which plan we were to follow.  Because we are here right now, we obviously know that we chose to follow the plan Jesus proposed. We agreed to have agency and a Savior to redeem our sins. This plan entitles all of us to make our own decisions as well as our own mistakes. With Jesus as our Savior, we have the ability to be forgiven of our sins. Our decisions in the premortal existence allowed us this opportunity to be on Earth to learn and grow.
I know that Jesus is our Savior and  gave us the opportunity to forgive and be forgiven of our sins. I know that we lived with God and can live with God again in eternal life. I say this in the name of Jesus Christ, amen.

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And here's my talk:

 
In the proclamation we read, "In the Pre-mortal Realm, spirit sons and daughters knew and worshiped God as their Eternal Father and accepted His plan by which His children could obtain a physical body and gain earthly experience to progress towards perfection and ultimately realize his or her divine destiny as an heir of eternal life."

Anthony, thank you, did an awesome job on explaining what happened in our pre-mortal lives.  Since then, we all have had the opportunity of being born. We retained and kept the right to choose, our agency, for ourselves.

We are now experiencing mortal life.  Our spirits are untied with our bodies.  We have opportunities to grow and develop in ways that were not possible in our pre-mortal life. In order to progress and become like God, each of us had to obtain a body and be tested during a time of probation here on earth.  While on the earth we are out of God’s physical presence.  We do not remember our pre-earth life and we must walk by faith rather than sight.

In the scriptures we learn about Adam & Eve. While they were in the Garden of Eden they were still in God’s presence and they could have lived there forever.  They lived in innocence, and God provided them everything that they needed. They did though have their agency. And there was one thing that they were not allowed to do.  And that was to eat of the fruit, the forbidden fruit from the tree of knowledge of good and evil.  Now, if they obeyed this commandment they could stay in the garden, yet they would not progress and experience opposition. They knew no joy but they did not know pain or sorrow either.  

Satan was there to tempt them.  The did choose to eat of that fruit.  Because of this choice, they were cast out of the garden and out of God’s physical presence.  This is referred to often as the Fall of Adam.

Separation from God is spiritual death.  Adam & Eve then became mortal – subject to disease, suffering and physical death.

Like Adam & Eve we are also separated from God in this life.  We do not have Him walking and talking among us.  We are also experiencing Spiritual Death.  This life is a time that we can learn, we can prove ourselves.  It's a time to choose to come unto Christ. And it's a time to prepare to be worthy to receive eternal life.

Our goal is eternal life.  The road to Eternal Life has a gate and the gate has a door.  Baptism opens that door to get us onto the correct path.

I want to tell you a story about a boy named Jon.  Jon was born into an LDS family.  He was the 7th of 11 children. Jon was, his family was estatic when he arrived. They had all these girls and they were ready for a boy.  They were estatic when Jon arrived.  Jon grew up in the church and was baptized at age 8.

We also have to be baptised.  We don't have to be baptized at 8 but we must also, like Jon, be baptized.  This is our first step on that path.  Our Savior set this example for us when he to the water with John the Baptist, who was authorized by God to baptize Jesus by immersion. This set the mode of baptism that we all must follow.

But is baptism enough? 

Jon became a Deacon at age 12, a Teacher at age 14 and a Priest at age 16.  He attended Seminary, almost regularly and most of his youth activities. But somewhere in Jon’s youth he started to go astray.  As Jon matured, he fell away from from the church and activity in the church.  He started making some bad choices.  When the time came for Jon to consider a mission, he was far from being ready, possibly not even eligible to serve.

In mortality we live in a condition where we are subject to both spiritual and physical death.  God has a perfect, glorified, immortal body of flesh and bones.  To become like God and return to His presence, we too must have a perfect, immortal body of flesh and bones. 

At some point our mortal bodies will die.  When our bodies die, we as spirits enter the spirit world and wait.  If not for the Savior Jesus Christ, death would end all hope for future existence with Heavenly Father.

Along with physical death, sin is an obstacle that keeps us from becoming like our Heavenly Father.  We often yield to temptation, break commandments, and sin. We all make mistakes. We must be forgiven and cleansed. We are helpless without the Atonement of Jesus Christ.

As Anthony explained Jesus was chosen before we were born to be our Savior and Redeemer.  His atoning sacrifice makes it possible for us to overcome the effects of the Fall. 

We will still suffer physical death, but Jesus Christ overcame the obstacle of physical death for us.  When He died on the cross, His spirit became separated from His body.  On the 3rd day, His spirit & body were reunited and He was resurrected. His body is no longer subject to disease, pain or death.

Having a resurrected body is the only way we can obtain eternal life.  We must also be cleansed from sin.  We are not responsible for anyone else’s sins.  Adam & Eve must repent for their own sins as must our parents and grandparents and on and on in our generations.  We though are responsible for our sins.  These sins prevent us from living in Heavenly Father’s presence.  Only through the Savior’s grace and mercy can we become clean from our sin in order to live with God again.

If we have not been baptized, we must first repent.  After baptism and receiving of the Holy Ghost, we must endure to the end.  Christ paid the penalty for our sins.  He alone was able to do this. We learn in the New Testament that He is the literal Son of God.  He lived a sinless life and was completely obedient to His Father.  Even though He was tempted, He did not give in. When the time came to pay the price of the world’s sins, He was prepared and willing. Even though it was excruciatingly painful – causing Him to bleed from every pore – He submitted to the Father’s will in an expression of love to our Father and to us. This is the Atonement. 

Christ promises to forgive our sins on the condition that we accept Him.  We must strive to faithfully keep the commandments to the end of our lives. We must be continually repentant and asking for forgiveness.

When Jon was 20 years old, circumstances changed in his life and he realized he had gone astray.  After counseling with his Bishop, he chose to move away from the life he was living.  He moved across the country to live with his older sister who was married and had a family.  As Jon was progressing back to activity in the church, he decided he wanted to serve a mission.  He continued to keep in touch with his Bishop from home.  They made an action plan & Jon started preparing for a mission. 

Through our obedience and the Atonement of Jesus Christ everyone has the opportunity to receive eternal life. 

Even though Christ conquered physical death, we still must die.  Death is a part of the process of our transformation from mortality to immortality.

Jon was preparing to go on a mission.  One day Jon was at work.  He was a pizza delivery-boy.  It was raining that day.  Jon had an older car, he really needed new tires.  Jon skidded in the rain and had a major car accident.  Jon was killed on impact!

A testimony of the plan of salvation can give us hope and purpose as we wrestle with the challenges of life.  We can find reassurance in the knowledge that we are children of God and that we lived in His presence before we were born. We know that our actions during mortality influence our eternal destiny. Knowing this helps us to make important decisions on eternal truths rather than on the circumstances of life. We understand and have the promise of eternal families.

Death does not change our personality or our desires for good or evil.  Those who chose to obey God in this life live in a state of happiness, peace and rest from troubles and cares.  Those who chose not to obey in this life and did not repent live in a state of unhappiness. We remain in the spirit world until we are resurrected.

What about those who died without the knowledge of Christ or without baptism?  Do they have a chance?  In the spirit world the gospel is preached to those who did not obey the gospel or have the opportunity to hear it while here on this earth.

Jon is my brother.  He was 20 when he was killed in a car accident.  He was preparing to go on a mission.  When he died my family had a wide variety of reactions.  Some were depressed.  Some were confused.  Some were angry.  Some of them stopped going to church.  And 2 of them still haven't gone back, 3 of them. Some of them were angry with Heavenly Father for allowing this to happen.  Everyone was sad.  I was accepting.  I knew Jon had received his mission call, it wasn’t the one we were expecting.  He didn't have to learn a language or go to a foreign county.  He was called home to teach those brothers and sisters who passed on without the knowledge of the gospel, without having the opportunity to learn and be baptised. I am proud of my brother for serving his mission.  I miss him and cannot wait to see him again, but I am proud of him. 

When our bodies and spirits are reunited, when we're resurrected, we will be brought before God to be judged. We will remember our good and our bad deeds. If we have repented, we will receive mercy. We will be rewarded according to our works and our desires.

Through the resurrection all people will become immortal, they will live forever. It's a free gift to everyone whether they were good or bad. Eternal life is not the same as immortality.  Eternal life is given only to those who obey the gospel and are freed from sin though the Atonement of Christ. It means living forever with God and with our eternal families.

Most people have lost a family member some time in their life.  What if we never got to see them again? Most of you know my daughter, Monica, left about a month ago.  She went away to college, school, to live in another state.  I had a really hard time when she left.  It hurt, it physically hurt to have her be gone from me. What if I could never see her again, what if that were the end?  She didn't die, but what if she had and that were the end?  I can't imagine the pain that we would feel if we had Eternal life knowing we could never be with our family members again.

I have a testimony of the Atonement.  I know that I make mistakes and I know that I probably will continue to, but I know that I can ask for forgiveness and I can repent and that through Christ's atonement I can still have eternal life.

I used to know that God loved everybody. Everybody says that God loves everybody. But a few years ago I learned & realized that it's not just everybody, it's me. God loves me. He loves each one of us individually, not just as a whole.  He cares about each of us individually. I know that Christ gave His life for me. He loves me.  And I appreciate all that He did and continues to do.  I am extremely grateful for the knowledge that I can be with my family again and with my brother, Jon, who I haven't seen for over 10 years. 

I know that through the Savior we can all be together again as a family. I share this with you in the name of Jesus Christ, amen.





Two years ago my mother came to my home one afternoon after working in the Temple.  She told me she was concerned.  She had had the impression that I was dying.  She told me I needed to go to the doctor. I did & basically he did nothing.  I started praying about what my Mom had said. It took me some time but I did get to the point where I was okay with the idea that I might be dying.  I asked Heavenly Father that if this were to happen that my children would understand.  I got the impression to talk to my children about the conversation with my mother.  I was able to share with them my thoughts and beliefs.  I let them know that if I were to die that they needed to know that it was okay with me.  I remembered when Jon died & how hard it was for my siblings and parents.  I did not want my children to be upset with Heavenly Father.  It was a weird conversation and had us all in tears.  About 2 ½ months later I ended up in the emergency room.  The next morning, when waking up in the hospital, I had a very spiritual experience.  A few days later my doctor told me that if I had not come to the hospital when I did, I would not have survived the night.   

Friday, July 6, 2012

The 5 W's

Who am I? - My name is Beth.  I am a stay-at-home mother of 5 children.  My oldest, Monica (Emmie) moved out a month ago to try living on her own. I am married to Paul (Charlie Brown or CB). My other children are Joshua (G), Anthony (T), Maggie (Rosie) & Samantha (Essie).  I belong to The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints. I grew up in the church.  CB was not a member when we started dating or when we were married.  I have a profile on the church's website, if you want to know more about me.  There is also more information on my first posting (June 8, 2012 "Emmie's Moving".  If you want to know more, please feel free to ask.

What is the reason I started a blog? -  I have many friends & family members who blog.  I had debated a long time about starting one but couldn't figure out why I should.  When Emmie left, I was writing all my feeling in my journal as well as posting some on facebook.  I realized that I wasn't the only one who had a hard time with children leaving.  I was also having trouble with my hand falling asleep as I was writing in my journal.  I figured this way I would be able to share thoughts with myself and anyone who found my blog as well as keep my hands awake. :)

I also find there are things I want to "share" (like the silly sign at the Doctor's office). I will share them here.  I may share other things.  I am sure my blog will "grow" with me.

Where do I live? - I live in Gaithersburg, MD.  My family lives in a 2 bedroom condo.  We've lived here since Emmie was a few weeks old.  We really like living in Gaithersburg.  We like the school, most of the neighbors and the people in our Ward (congregation). We may move after G & T graduate (2013) but it will all depend on wether or not CB finds a job somewhere else.

When do I write? - That will vary depending on mood.  I may blog multiple times per day or go for a long time w/o blogging. I have the option to blog from my home computer and my cell phone.  I have only written items from my phone so far and saved them as drafts to be completed at home . . . but that doesn't mean it will always be that way.

Why do I blog? -  I'm not sure . . .  yet.  We'll see. :)

Thanks for stopping by. 

Wednesday, July 4, 2012

Apartment, Power & Other Small Updates

Just a quick update to let you know a few things.

First - Emmie signed a lease yesterday. Unfortunately she is only able to rent for July & August. CB & I are paying the rent for her. She has not found a job yet. She says she is trying but that there isn't anything available in Provo. We are hoping that now that she's going to be living in Provo she'll have better luck finding something.

She had requested and paid for a single room. When she got to the apartment she found there had been a mistake and the other beds were already filled. The office was closed & would not be open today due to the holiday. She has already started to get to know her roommates. She said she'll talk to the office tomorrow about getting the cheaper rent (shared room rate).

She sent me a few pictures of her part of the room.



It looks small but at least it's furnished. I'm glad she has this opportunity to live on her own. I know going to a Singles Ward will be very good for her. I just hope she can find work and an apartment that doesn't require her to be a student. Her plans were to go to school but at this she's nothing about that.

Second - my Mom got power back yesterday! Yay! My older brother, Scott, called me yesterday afternoon to let me know that power had been restored. He was very excited. It had only been 3 1/2 days without power with temperatures in the 90's and of course our lovely high humidity. Mom is having a Fourth of July "picnic" this afternoon.

On a side note - The City of Gaithersburg cancelled their fireworks. They usually have a day of activities before the fireworks. It is on the Country's fairgrounds. The local power company, PEPCO, has been using the fairgrounds as a "home base" for their repair crews. The City decided that leaving them there & continuing to restore people's power was more important. I couldn't agree more. There are other firework shows close enough that if we really want to go & see some we can. I cannot imagine still being without power.

BTW - The kids (G, T & Rosie) had a youth activity last night. They went swimming at the Bishop's house. The Bishop & his wife own a kids summer camp. It is on the same property as their house. Rosie didn't get to swim as she waited too long to get into her bathing suit. It started raining almost right away. Then it began lightening. They had to get out of the pool, for safety, after seeing the lightening. Rosie had just barely come back from putting her suit on.

We drove home another girl from our Ward, Melissa. She was actually staying with a family friend. Their power is still out. Their family (Mom plus 3 children) have been going from friend's house to friend's house since Saturday. Ugh!


Monday, July 2, 2012

Storm Aftermath

We had a huge storm come through late last Friday night. The winds were amazingly strong.  I saw a posting on Patch that some were 75 mph.  Many people lost power. We were blessed to not lose power for more than 5 minutes.  We did have one neighbor lose a window!  Thank goodness we were blessed to not have lost any. (Although if we did, we could get them replaced by insurance - which wouldn't be too bad)

There were trees down all over town. Multiple intersections had the street lights out on Saturday, all day.

Our local mall, Lakeforest, was closed most of the day.  My kids were hoping to go to Gamestop for a buy 2 get 1 free deal they were having over the weekend.  Gamestop was closed all day. 

Lots of my friends & some of my family lost power.  My sister, Erin, had her power come back on Saturday afternoon.  My Mom's house is still without power (it's Monday afternoon).

Rosie & I went to the grocery store after dinner on Saturday night.  Many of their shelves were empty.  I cannot believe how much food they must have had to throw away.  It looked like the ice cream had melted in the freezers.  I took a few pictures (as did Rosie).
Empty Ice Cream Shelves with drippings

Close up of Ice Cream drippings
Empty shelves where almost everything was on sale
Rosie's picture of empty shelves

Here are a couple of pictures from right around my house (taken Monday afternoon).

Trees broken & down in my parking lot
Tree across the street taken out at roots

Yesterday at church we had many visitors from other Wards (congregations) who didn't have power. As of Monday afternoon my parents still don't have power. This morning my Mom called to say her large freezer couldn't keep up with the heat & that if we wanted some of the food we could have it.

My parents have a generator to keep the freezer plugged in & a few lights on but it just wasn't enough. I offered to keep some food at my house for Mom. She declined & said to take whatever I wanted. Rosie was VERY excited to see what yummy foods I brought home.  My parents may not have power until Friday!  I offered for them to come to my house. They declined. Their house is pretty cool as part of it is underground.


Funny "Sign"

I took my boys to Children's Hospital today for a DR visit. While we were waiting for the doctor we were looking at the art work.  What else is there to do while waiting?  We noticed the funniest sign.

Pictures on the wall
On the wall with the "regular" pictures & artwork was a plastic cover without a picture in it.  It still had the paper from Staples telling what it was.

This cover still has the paper from Staples in it instead of a picture

I cannot believe somone didn't notice this and put something inside it.  We saw another one that still had the paper from Staples inside of it.

Interesting Neighbor

We have the most interesting neighbor, "Nina". She lives in the condo next to ours.  We rarely ever see her.  I used to drive her around on errands almost weekly.  This was many years ago.  In the last few years we rarely ever see her.  She only goes out very early in the morning (5 AM).  I have seen her occasionally coming home when I leave to take my children to Seminary.  She has a daughter the same age as my Rosie.  Her daughter "Lizzie" even says her Mom is weird. 

Whenever Nina is going to be out she keeps Lizzie home from school so the "house won't be alone". She gets many food deliveries: Chinese food, Spanish food, Pizza, etc.. We've seen her when she was getting pizza delivered. She has the pizza guy turn the box sideways & slide it through a small space between the door & the frame.  What's up with that?  This way one side of the pizza will have almost all the cheese on it and the other side will be rather empty.

She subscribes to the Sunday paper. She doesn't take it in until about Wednesday. She gets her groceries delivered by Peapod (very early in the AM). I've had my groceries delivered by Peapod before. (BTW -  they are awesome!) They will bring the groceries into your house & put them wherever you want. This morning I went out & saw this at her house.


Today is Monday.  That is Sunday morning's paper at her door.  Those are Peapod bags by the door.  As usual she must have had the delivery person just leave them there.  She probably opened the door about 1 inch to sign the paperwork.  She will not take them in whenever there is anyone else in the hallway.  I was standing by the elevator when I took this picture.

She seems like a very nice lady, just a bit on the weird side.